An Interview of: Maya Hawke

interview by Lily Rabe
photography by Boe Marion
styling by Cece Liu
all clothing by Prada FW25

Maya Hawke’s breakout role on Stranger Things, as the frenetically precocious Robin Buckley, whose character arc would go on to challenge the entire dynamic of the Netflix tentpole, was instant proof of a rare, believable, and soulful complexity. That same year, a minor appearance as a Manson girl in Tarantino’s Once Upon A Time in Hollywood (2019), firmly placed Hawke in a class of next gen actors demanding visibility on the silver screen in an industry that is not only rapidly evolving, but also in crisis. Aside from her well-known screenwork, she is also a musician and stage actor who has released three studio albums and recently starred in an Off-Broadway play. Her titular role in the revival of Sarah Ruhl’s Eurydice, a play about the inexorable riptide of grief, earned her widespread critical acclaim. On the occasion of her recent casting in The Hunger Games: Sunrise on the Reaping (2026) and the final season of Stranger Things, Hawke and fellow actor Lily Rabe discuss the fraught, vulnerable psychic landscape of the dramatic arts and the undeniable power and seduction of process. There’s no business like show business.

LILY RABE: Hi, Maya.

MAYA HAWKE: Hi, beautiful woman.

LILY RABE: Speaking of works in progress—for me, I don’t know what it is to be in any other state of being other than work in progress. I always get so freaked out when a director says that we’ve picture locked. It sends me into an existential panic.

MAYA HAWKE: I feel the same. I feel like I’m always in a state of process and progress and creation. Where I get the most nervous is when things freeze. That’s the nice thing about the theater, because even though you lock the show, it’s never not in process, it’s never not continuing to be worked on.

RABE Yes, you always have another show, and you get to do it all over again. And then it’s over, and no one gets to see it anymore. But with theater, you don’t experience that feeling of saying goodbye like you do with film, where this one take is going to be...

HAWKE ...Used forever! They don’t get to see the four other takes that I did that were cool and different.

RABE: With the theater, you can fail better (laughs).

HAWKE: Yes, you can fail more continuously. So, it feels like failing is, in and of itself, an honorable act because it’s an impermanent state where you’re always aspiring to not fail the next time. But when you’re in a permanent state of failure, by closing the door on something, that’s when I get really sick to my stomach.

RABE: Even in the play, Ghosts, that I just did with your brother [Levon Hawke]—when the director, Jack O’Brien told us we were officially frozen—both “frozen” and “locked” feel so traumatizing.

HAWKE: Yes! I don’t want to be frozen, and I don’t want to be locked.

RABE: Once it was frozen, Jack would go back to his house in the country. When he would occasionally come in on a Sunday matinée, all of us would just be so desperate for a note from him

HAWKE: It’s true because when you freeze a show, you’re still shaping it. And it moves in different directions all on its own, just from the nature of the chemicals of the people together. Something I remember being so nervous about was when Les [Waters], who directed Eurydice, came back to see it, and I couldn’t even remember if I was still doing what I was supposed to be doing. We froze, but I don't know if I froze or not.

RABE: We both grew up in artistic families. Do you feel like that’s the way every interview you do starts?

HAWKE: It’s interesting. I wonder if that’s been your experience or not. I feel like it’s a double-edged blade, right? Because it’s both true and interesting. When I talk to most people, eventually, I start to wonder about them: How did you end up like you, or what happened to make you—you? I always wonder about a person’s childhood and experiences, so, for me, it’s such a fair question. Do you get asked that question a lot?

RABE: Yes, all the time. But what you’re saying is true. When I read someone’s profile, it always starts with their childhood and where they grew up. It just feels sort of loaded for us, but it is our history. It sounds like you don’t have a chip on your shoulder about that question.

HAWKE: I think it depends on who asked the question; I can smell whether someone is asking for the wrong reasons or for the normal reasons. One big mistake people from similar backgrounds make is getting defensive about it, because it gets a little like “the lady doth protest too much.” It’s a completely appropriate question if it comes out of curiosity and education about another person. I was doing an interview recently where someone asked me this question, and I just started talking about my high school teachers and my acting teachers. Because, yes, I have an artistic family, and that’s the reason I was exposed to acting, but it’s the same for most people: your parents loom so large. Then, you go out and you find your guides, especially as a teenager. Eventually, you wind your way back to your parents, where you’re like, “Oh, you guys are okay.” These guides that pop into your life, in these formative years, point you towards who you are, and sometimes who you are is right back to where you started. I wouldn't be me if it weren’t for Laura Barnett and Nancy Reardon and Nancy Fells Garrett, but I obviously wouldn't be who I am without my mom and dad.

RABE: I’m interested in this because I took a slightly indirect path towards the thing I always knew I wanted to be doing, and part of that was because of exactly what we’re talking about. I had tremendously supportive, brilliant, incredible, and wonderful parents. But I was still like: I’m going to be a dancer. Then the second thing was writing, when really what I wanted to be doing was acting.

HAWKE: Well, in some ways, writing plus dance is acting. (laughs) I wanted to go deep into poetry, to go into academia, and study it. My different take on poetry was that it should be spoken out loud.

RABE: But it’s certainly not acting, don't you dare. (laughs)

HAWKE: Definitely not. (laughs) But I relate to trying to carve out your version of the same pie. It takes a little while to be like: All right, I’ll eat the pie. Being sure that you do love it, and this is the thing I’m the best at—the place I feel the safest and most whole in the universe—so I probably shouldn’t turn my back on that feeling just to prove I can. But I do feel like my experience watching people move through lives in the arts—both my parents and their friends—has been my secret weapon in life. It shapes everything—my emotional life, my work life, even therapy. Having the arts as your backbone is one of the most fortunate ways to move through life, because you have these tools on how to process emotions, how to look at conflict, how to look at the truth, through scene work and storytelling. I think it takes people a long time to go back and build that tool kit, versus if you’ve just been fortunate to walk out of your development with it. I couldn't be more grateful for that.

RABE: I think there’s a lot of truth in what you said. We’ve never really talked about this, but you’re the kind of person I’d call if I were afraid to share something with others for fear of judgment. But I’d call you, or your brother, because I’d know you wouldn’t be afraid of it. And I feel like you’d say the same about me. I wonder if that’s connected to what you just articulated so beautifully. It’s like we feel safer around the edges than maybe the average person does.

HAWKE: I think we understand the plasticity of emotion. Let’s say I’m having a horrible feeling, and I’m feeling somehow betrayed and angry, and as soon as I say those things out loud, something hard and carcinogenic loosens, then you have this opportunity to reshape it and be healed. That gives you so much emotional freedom and a sense of safety. To really understand that you are not defined by your feelings, you have to see how movable they actually are.

RABE: I know that your parents moved around a lot, but you were in New York primarily. Did your parents take you to the theater?

HAWKE: Well, not only did my parents take me to the theater, but my parents took me to see you in the theater. My favorite thing in the world as a kid was Shakespeare in the Park, and I saw you there twice; it shook me to my absolute core. I get asked all the time what movies made me become an actress. But really, the three things that made me want to be an actress were my dad doing The Winter’s Tale with Rebecca Hall, you in The Merchant of Venice, and you in As You Like It. Those three shows made me realize: that's the kind of woman I want to become, with that kind of strength and grace. I knew I wanted to go to Juilliard because I saw a version of being a grown woman that was right to me. I wanted to have mastery over language, over the space, and over the story that just made me want to do this. It was really because of seeing you.

RABE: I’m speechless. I love you. I can’t talk about this without talking about Eurydice. You and I never worked together—I was pulled into your orbit through your family. Right when Ghosts ended, which I had done with your brother Levon, you were cast in Eurydice. I haven’t really told this story, but I actually went to see you in it with your brother. I had seen the original production at that same theater, with the same director, even many of the same props, and music. I went with my mother, and we usually shared the same taste in theater—but this time, I was stumped. I thought it was beautiful, but I didn’t understand it. My mother said, “Maybe someday you will.” Years later, I returned. Sitting next to Levon, I watched you—someone I love—play this role, and I was overwhelmed. I cried so hard on your brother’s shoulder I couldn’t breathe or see; tears were shooting sideways out of my eyes. You were breathtaking—your command of the stage, your connection to your body, your language. You had this agelessness that was astonishing. I realized then that Eurydice might be the greatest play about grief ever written. And my mother was right: I finally understood it, because I had lost her. Experiencing that through you—this woman and artist I love—was profound beyond words. When we got backstage, I held onto you as if being passed from Levon’s arms into yours. You and Sarah Ruhl had given me the greatest gift anyone grieving could receive. It’s an experience I will carry forever.

HAWKE: It felt strange because, during rehearsals, Sarah often told me I reminded her of your mom. That made your reaction when you saw it even more meaningful to me. I almost felt like I felt as if Sarah wasn’t saying I reminded her of your mom, but that you would come to the play and feel her presence. I was so moved by the play. I haven’t had much experience with grief, but every night in that play, I felt it deeply—as if I were learning grief through the play itself. I feel like I grew a lot from doing that. We were in the deep end of sorrow that winter and into spring.

RABE: I feel like I’m back in the experience now.

HAWKE: You were so crazy good in Ghosts. It was a very intimidating thing to have seen you three times right before I started my play. How did it feel ending Ghosts, because ending a play is very strange and lonely, and you feel a little insane for a couple of weeks. And then you balance out.

RABE: It’s stressful, sad, and strange. Ending a job, a film, or a TV show can be incredibly emotional, but it’s not the same as a play. The schedule seeps into your cells—you become a creature of habit: when to wake up, when to have caffeine, when to eat. Being in the theater for eight shows a week, you almost go underground, and then suddenly, it’s over. Even though Ghosts was painful, I didn’t feel even close to ready to be done.

HAWKE: When you’re at a midpoint, you think you’re ready to be done with it, then towards the end, you think you can go on forever. One of my favorite Leonard Cohen quotes is, “You look good when you’re tired, you look like you could go on forever.” Weirdly, it’s from a poem called “How to Speak Poetry.” And it’s a true reflection of acting because you can get into that space where you feel like you could go on forever. You’re also in this community of people who are with you in that experience. You feel unified in this group that is going through it together, and it’s the least lonely a person can ever feel. But then, it ends, and you’re not ready for it to end, and suddenly it’s extremely lonely and anxiety-inducing, trying to carve back out who you were before it, and how you’ve changed from it.

RABE: You can never be who you were before. Do you find that with certain roles, when it comes to the end, you’re desperate to hold on to them, or sometimes you’re ready to let them go? And are there things that you do to encourage one thing or the other?

HAWKE: I feel like I’m always encouraging letting go. To me, great acting is the ability to be fully committed and involved while maintaining a relationship with yourself. I think sometimes people give themselves a lot of credit for losing themselves; that it means that you’re more serious and real. But to me, the real goal is to be fully committed and find a way to keep being you during it—to keep being a good partner, a good sister, a good friend, a good tenant. One of the hardest things, weirdly, was to keep up therapy while I was doing the play. But I think it was so valuable, because it was like checking back in with me every week for an hour. That’s what helped me release it when it was over. I also just had a big ending with Stranger Things, a character I played for seven years. It was funny because my dad called me—he was doing a TV show that was coming to an end—and he was like, “I feel so weird, I don't know if we’re going to do another season of this show. How will I let go of this character while also not letting go of him?” And my advice was to let go completely. Imagine you’ll never do it again. Because by the time you’ll do another season, you will be different. The characters can change too. You can build a new one. On Stranger Things, every season, I let go of whatever Robin from that season was and built a totally new one. For me, it’s about getting back to hearing your voice, your instincts, and your feelings, because you is where you filled up the cauldron before, and took that character out of the cauldron of you, so you always have to be churning.

RABE: Aren’t you doing a comedy right now?

HAWKE: Yes. Speaking of works in progress, I’m working on a romantic comedy—sort of. It’s a bit of a genre cruncher. It’s about a couple who convince themselves their relationship has sociopolitical consequences: when they’re getting along, they get promotions and their stocks go up; when they fight, their favorite celebrities get into car accidents, their stocks tank, and they get demoted. So they try to hack their life by hacking their relationship, forcing harmony to get whatever they want. As you can imagine, that has some negative repercussions. It’s about the danger of thinking you can control everything, and the need to just be honest. But it’s really fun. Lewis Pullman is such a great actor, and it’s the debut of an extraordinary first-time director, Graham Parkes. I’m also getting to play a role I’ve never really played before: a shrewd, smart, hot adult woman.

RABE: I feel like I’ve never done a run at comedy. But I’m very romantic about what the experience would be like; I’ve certainly romanticized it.

HAWKE It’s really fun because you get to play with all the silliness and the ridiculousness. But then, there’s this core of love and relationship, and I have probably spent the majority of my conscious years thinking about those two things. For better or for worse. You have this tremendous resource of the thing that you spend most of your time thinking about, so there's this depth there, and this messiness, and all of the experiences to draw from and to build off of. There’s also this kind of joy and silliness and mania to it.

RABE I was just thinking about how sad Ghosts was, but it was also so funny, as was Eurydice.

HAWKE: I cracked up laughing. But the thing about the truth: it can be funny and sad at the same time.

RABE: Exactly. We can become all things.

HAWKE: Absolutely. When you’re most available to laugh is also when we’re almost crying. When you’re just living in the most poignant emotional space, the wind could blow through you; you can laugh or cry, and you’re not sure which one. That’s the kind of art I want to be making, art that walks on that edge.

RABE: Tell me, what’s it like being on a tour as a musician? What’s it like being a rock star? (laughs) Is it you up there?

HAWKE: This is what’s confusing to me, because I kind of don’t want it to be me up there. If I’m going to stand in front of people, I want to be a character as a form of armor. Because no matter what, you’re playing a character. You can’t be you all the time on stage; you have to pick a version. But every time I tried to put a character on top of my writing, it felt false. The songs feel personal, so I don’t know how to be a character while singing them. That delineation confuses me. I haven’t figured it out yet. I want to look great on stage and put on a good show, but when I start trying to put on a show and pick a costume, it feels disconnected from the music. I almost just want to be naked on stage singing, because that would make me feel most connected—that’s how I feel in my songs. I’m committed to figuring out how to put on a show musically that incorporates all those things.

RABE: Do you get nervous in the same way as before the plays?

HAWKE: I get much more nervous. I have nerves that are almost at the level of a deterrent. Sometimes I think, maybe we just don’t do it tonight. With plays, the nerves are bad, but they’re not at the same level. It’s almost like it’s a ship that’s gonna leave the dock whether you’re on it or not, so you better jump on, versus being the captain of the ship with my music, saying, “I don't know if we should even leave the dock.” Also, there’s something about having your name on the poster. When someone’s coming to see you in a play, they’re coming to see the play, but with a concert, it’s just your name. If I could go back in time, I would have picked a band name, so it’s less pressure. When I was touring, I had stage deafness, where all of a sudden I just couldn't hear anything. It felt like time travel. I felt like everything moves in the slowest pace anything has ever moved, and the show’s over before you know it. I couldn’t hear my own voice, even whenit’s mixed perfectly; all I can hear is the audience.

RABE And what about public speaking or doing press? Do you get nervous about that?

HAWKE No. I sometimes get nervous if I think there’s a trick up someone’s sleeve, because I’ve been tricked before. Maybe now I have my guard up a little bit when doing press, but I don’t get nervous in that way.

RABE I get nervous even when giving a speech at dinner with really close friends where I know I’m safe. But with acting, I find tremendous comfort in the fact that it’s Lily Rabe playing this part.

HAWKE: Me too. I like implicating other people in my own disaster (laughs). I feel very nervous when no one else has been implicated. But the press isn’t nerve-wracking to me because I love conversation; it feels like where my comfort zone is. I’m happiest in a good talk.

RABE: You know when you’re on a press line, and then suddenly there’s this incredibly curious person who asks you a question that’s better than any question you could have ever imagined being asked. And it just makes the whole thing wonderful?

HAWKE: Yes. In those press walks, I can get nervous because I always want to be quippy and quick, and usually—as I’m sure you've noticed in this conversation—I’m just not that quick. It takes a little while for me to get to my point. So, sometimes I get nervous from, you know, Oh, I wish I had a spicy one-liner for this moment.

RABE: Like a sound bite. I’m not good with that either. I’m also not good with the log line. When people are like, “What’s this about?” I'm like, “Well, pull up a chair.” (laughs)

HAWKE: I’m bad at those, too, but I am good at talking.

RABE: Hamish [Linklater] always says, “Career is a dirty word.” Do you often think about your next steps, hoping for anything specific, or are you thinking about each project on its own in the moment you’re in your life?

HAWKE: When I was starting, I was trying to explain to my agents how I wanted them to think about my career. I would say things like, “I want to be sixty years old doing Shakespeare in the Park, so let’s keep that goal in mind to guide our choices.” In many ways, that’s still true, but I do think career is a dirty word. When Stranger Things first ended, I was in a sick brain about my career, and my sick brain was saying, “Your career is over.” I felt like I got lucky as a teenager and got to join something that worked, and everything else is the side effects from that luck, and now that luck ran out, you’re finished. I was really anxious, to the point of driving myself a little bit insane while I was doing the play. On every off day, I would take a bunch of meetings, because I was anxious from the loss of that anchor of Stranger Things. So, that was the strategy: I wanted to do whatever I could while I still could. Then, all of a sudden, I had this empty terrain of the foreseeable future, and I had no idea what was structuring it; it was really scary. I started thinking a lot about my career, what I wanted, what my goals were, and what was possible. As a young person, I had dreams, but with how the industry has changed, now those dreams are unclear. I don’t know if there’s such a thing as a movie star anymore. The path is all changing, and because of the nature of how quickly things are changing these days, Hamish is right, career is a dirty word. It just has to be about experience and about what’s pulling you in one direction or another. It’s okay if that’s sometimes money, and it’s okay if sometimes it’s going to cost you money to do this job. You just need to do it. You just have to make sure that you’re keeping that balance and don’t get addicted to either thing. It’s easy for me to get preoccupied with strategy and career, but I try to put it to bed.

RABE: I don’t think about my career when I’m working on something I love. I go to work every day and come home feeling like I’ve given every ounce of my sweat and soul because this is what I love. I love that feeling.

HAWKE: It’s addictive.

RABE: I want to be there all the time. So, when I'm getting to do that, I’m not thinking about my career in any sort of way. There is something just innately unhealthy about it, but also delusional. I’ve learned over the years that I’m almost always wrong when I think something is going to be a certain way, and I’m rarely right. So, I try to keep those voices as quiet as I can.

HAWKE: It’s not a game that you can play with a strategy. It’s like saying you have a good strategy for playing bingo. You just need to follow your heart and try everything because no matter how good a career you end up having, if you don’t follow it from your gut, it’s going to feel hollow. No matter how bad your career turns out, if every choice you made was your own, and you made it with love, and with the people you love, and the stories that you love, then I think you’re going to feel like you had a great career.

RABE: I have a feeling that we will want to just keep working until the end. Hopefully, we’ll never have that moment where we have to stop and look back and assess anything. (laughs)

HAWKE: Let’s leave that for our obituary writers.

Linder: The First Cut Is the Deepest

 
 


interview by Summer Bowie

photography by Hazel Gaskin


Nothing is a better testament to the ineffable power of printed matter than the fact that you are holding a print magazine in the 21st century. No one is tracking how long you will stay on this page and measuring it against your identity markers or browsing habits. There is no cookie policy. It’s just you, the images, the text, and the paper. What memories or feelings will this content summon within you as you consume it? If you’re anything like Linder, your sensual experience with turning the pages and inhaling the bouquet they have absorbed might give rise to an uncontrollable urge to reach for the scissors. Known for her iconic photomontages that contrast the incongruous gender representations respective to men’s and women’s magazines of the 20th century, Linder has always had an expert facility for hijacking images. She collects these flotsam and jetsam of Western popular culture and connects them in ways that mirror the hidden synaptic connections within our collective unconscious. Forever beseeching the muse, Linder finds ways of luring her in a multitude of media, including music, dance, markmaking, and printmaking. Her career has been an endless conjuring of that undefinable feeling when the muse comes to possess you and time stands still. Linder may find her in a Playboy, a song, an atlas, or a dress. Each might contain just one part of her that is begging to be reunited with the rest of itself. If you find part of her in this magazine and you feel so compelled, we won’t hold it against you. We won’t even know.

SUMMER BOWIE: Hi, good to see you. Thanks so much for doing this.

LINDER: Oh, thank you. I’ve just been spending most of the day driving through the English Lake District, which was the real cradle of Romanticism. The poet John Ruskin was there, William Wordsworth, and Beatrix Potter. They have a lot of great secondhand bookshops. So, I went there to find material to make new works for Andréhn-Schiptjenko’s booth at Art Basel Paris.

BOWIE: Wow, you must be telepathic because I was just about to ask you what you did today. What did you find?

LINDER: One of them is an atlas of dermochromes. These were books that were produced—full of cases of syphilis—for doctors out in the country who had minimal training. There’s a lot of genitalia in here. Oh, it’s really quite peculiar. I also got a beautiful book of ballet from exactly the same period [shows book]. It’s an extraordinary ballet called The Green Table. Have you heard of it?

BOWIE: Yes, it’s about a war room table, by Kurt Jooss. Oh yeah, that’s gorgeous.

LINDER: There are so many wonderful photographs in here. And I got a huge portfolio from Paris at the turn of the 20th century. It’s full of the most extraordinary illustrations. So, that was my Monday. When one is too much in need of finding that right image, it somehow escapes you. Sometimes I sit there, and the muse does not turn up. I’m just there, I have all the most beautiful material, I have lots of time, and nothing happens. In that case, I usually go for a walk and try to trick the muse when I get back. It’s best when things just find you.

 
 

BOWIE: You open the door and let the invitation do the work for you.

LINDER: Exactly that. There’s an English saying, Chance favors the prepared mind. It’s like going on a first date. You’re open to invitations, but at the same time, you’re quite cool. You want the gods to gently lay these treasures at your feet, and they did today, so I’m very happy. As I was driving back from the lakes, I was listening to the BBC, and they’re talking about the meetings between Zelenskyy and Starmer and Trump, asking questions about how they plan to choreograph it all. It was quite strange after getting this book from a ballet about peace negotiations. It was a great reminder that it’s not just the arts that are choreographed.

BOWIE: Of course, we have the theater of war, and diplomatic negotiations are one of the highest forms of theater. You’ve also taken inspiration from recent technologies like deep fakes, but you’ve never actually worked with digital media. Can you explain why?

LINDER: I worked a little bit with AI, but I found it too easy. I like a slight struggle, as if one is making a jigsaw puzzle, but the lid has been lost. So, I have no idea what the image will be. With the images I’ve just shown you, I would begin to lay those out—lots and lots of images. It’s quite contemplative at first. I look at all those images and think what could I put in to hijack them? I want to take them to a place they shouldn’t go. I just love that sinful moment of cutting up a precious book. Whereas with digital media, there’s no sensation, no perfume, no sense of weight of the original object. I’m just devoted to print media. I love the smell of it. These books have quite a musty, moldy smell right now. For me, that signals that it’s time to work. I like the sensuality of working with very old newsprint. Sometimes when I apply glue, I get an olfactory shock from whatever the paper has absorbed, things like pipe tobacco or a bacon smell.

BOWIE: You’ve also done some works with India ink recently. What inspired you to start making marks on the paper?

LINDER: On the weekend that Roe v Wade was being debated, I had been thinking about my youth, when there were just two channels on TV and the Abortion Act [England, Scotland, and Wales, 1967] was being passed. I was always drawing and painting. I had such a crush on Aubrey Beardsley at the time, and I loved his drawings of small fetuses in bell jars. I began to think about how I could go back to making marks and how I could make a large pen. I suddenly looked at a roll-on deodorant, and I thought, if I empty that, and if I put ink in, that’s like a huge pen, and I was so excited. I was sitting there, drawing, looking at Shunga, all sorts of references, and doing these drawings of fetuses in these watery worlds, really peculiar. I love them because the ink comes out really quickly, so you have to keep the pen drawing very quickly. I did that, and then that dreadful news when it was overturned. That’s maybe why I’ve not gone back to those drawings just yet. I had more than one abortion when I was young, and one of the places I went to was in Liverpool. I remember young women from Ireland were there, because it was still illegal for them. They would all tell their moms they were going to see a friend in Liverpool. The guilt was tough. You would think that things would get better, but the opposite happened.

 
 

BOWIE: Now, it’s easier to get an abortion in Ireland than in most parts of the US. Is the making of the work a very emotional process for you?

LINDER: It’s deeply, deeply pleasurable. It feels very sort of reparative, as if time stands still. I don’t know whether I’ve been cutting out for five minutes or an hour. It’s deeply pacifying and exciting too. I’m a detective, thinking, what’s the muse up to? If I find a fabulous portrait of somebody, I’m thinking, where shall I position her? What kind of room would she be in? It’s that aesthetic arrest I get with a certain image, and I just know I have to work with it, but then the work begins.

BOWIE: A few years ago, you did EMDR [Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing] therapy, and it had a profound effect on the way the work felt for you. Can you talk about that?

LINDER: In 2018, I was invited by Art on The Underground to stay for the summer to design these huge billboards around one of the stations in London. It was all set up to be this really wonderful summer, and then I began to have very intense flashbacks from my childhood. I’ve done a lot of therapy over the years to process the incest I experienced, so I naively thought it was no longer lurking in the darkness of my psyche. Suddenly, my psyche was throwing up this new crop of images from my childhood, and it was very shocking. I have a friend who works with sex offenders in prisons to try and rehabilitate them. So, I asked her what treatment she uses, and she said it’s EMDR and that I should try it. I found a woman who practices it from California, and she took me to hell and back. It’s almost like a Victorian form of therapy, someone waving a wand in front of you in order to neutralize a past experience, but for me, it was incredibly profound, and at times very funny. The only problem was that after I finished my therapy, for about a month, I couldn’t work with pornography. I’d go and see my therapist, and she’d say, “How are you?” and I’d say, “I’m really good, but I’m looking at a pile of Playboys and there is no motivation to do anything with them. Everything I was shown as a young child has been neutralized. Can I have my money back?” Luckily, it only lasted for a short time, and then the images got their charge back.

BOWIE: What was it like in the ’90s, balancing this just-beyond-burgeoning art career with early motherhood?

LINDER: I was thirty-two when I got pregnant, and I’d read all those feminist books from age sixteen about healthcare and pregnancy, and I wanted to do it my way. I wanted to have my baby at home, but at my age, the National Health Service called it a geriatric pregnancy. They kept saying it might be a blue baby, but I did have my son at home, and because home births were very rare in Manchester at that time, the midwife brought all her student midwives in at midnight to watch my son being born. Then, at 8 AM, he still wasn’t born, so the new nurse came in with her student midwives, and my son was born to this adoring female audience who had never gotten a chance to see a home birth. It was wonderful. But being a working mother was difficult. I was photographing Morrissey on his tours for two years, and that was kind of manageable. I’d just go away for a while and come back to see my son. I had good family care. Now, my son is always part of the performances I make. I’m really lucky. He scores music for films, so that’s a good person to have in the family.

BOWIE: You were deeply intertwined in the whole late ’70s, post-punk Manchester scene, and you were the front woman for a group you formed called Ludus. What made you want to make music?

LINDER: If you go to a concert, usually there’s the audience, and then up on stage, elevated, is the superstar. I wanted to make music because for a very short period—’76, ’77, ’78—the gap between the audience and the stage just disappeared. There wasn’t any barrier. Post-punk was exciting because everybody would get up on stage and try and hit drums for the first time, or get hold of a trumpet, make some squeaky noise, or hammer a guitar. I had never sung in my life, but I knew that my larynx is capable of producing a variety of sounds, and it was very liberating. Ludus is Latin for play, so we would improvise a lot, and you could feel that ecstatic freedom where everybody’s really locked as one. I would say to everybody in an improvisation, “You can’t make a mistake,” which is a gorgeous way to work, because in this society where we’re all trying to prove how perfect we are—as mothers, artists, whatever—improvisation reminds you that nothing is wrong and nothing is right.

 
 
 
 

BOWIE: You’ve also produced a number of performance pieces with dancers of various disciplines. Why do you like working with movement artists?

LINDER When I was very young, every Christmas, my mum would buy me the new Princess Tina Ballet Book. Those books absolutely hypnotized me because both men and women had makeup on and were equally extraordinary. I just sensed that this obviously was going to be my destiny. I would beg my mum and dad for ballet lessons, and they would just laugh. They were gorgeous, but we were very working-class. In 2013, I was having a retrospective at the Musée d’Art Moderne de la Ville de Paris, and I got in touch with the Northern Ballet company in Leeds. It was the best thing ever after years of looking at those books and finding deep sanctuary in the world of ballet, and they loved working with me because they could do things that were far removed from traditional ballet postures.

BOWIE: You create an interesting provocation for ballet dancers because there’s an unwritten hierarchy of dignity within the performing arts where ballerinas are at the top and sex workers are at the bottom. But you challenge them to tap into a side of themselves that is often reserved exclusively for erotic performers. You confront them with the notion that we’re all just taking on different forms of expression.

LINDER: It’s an empathetic leap into how that woman perhaps would have got up off that shag rug, or how she would have crossed a room, and how she and her friends would have interacted. I haven’t been able to work with anybody in the sex industry, but I did get to work with Mia Khalifa three years ago. She can do that lexicon of pornographic poses in her sleep. She was fluent in that language for a very slender part of her life, but she paid a huge price for it. It was extraordinary working with her, and I do really admire her being so outspoken.

BOWIE: Your performances have very striking costuming, and you have a very particular sense of style. Can you describe your sartorial sensibilities?

LINDER: I’ll be seventy in December, and it’s quite interesting to think about how one should look at my age. After about fifty, you start to feel like a vampire. You can’t see yourself mirrored back within popular culture. So it’s interesting to become invisible, but like in all the good fairy stories, if you’re invisible, then you have a certain agency. You’re not so easily definable. I’ve been working with my friend Ashish Gupta, who works purely in sequins. He has a studio in Delhi, and sequins can become highly politicized. We’re all supposed to just become invisible or muted. But when you have on one of Ashish’s head-to-toe sequined dresses, you feel armored. And because you can’t hide in sequins, you’re forced to lengthen the spine. You have to really own that. Some days, though, like today, I want to be totally anonymous, going around bookshops looking quite normcore. I’ve got my hair in a bun and I’m doing my perverse shopping in peace.

 
 

BOWIE: What is it about that experience that makes you want to go unnoticed?

LINDER: When I was little, I cut up my best dress, and I still don’t know why I did it, but I remember the pleasure of doing that. About a year ago, I told a bookseller that I make collage, and he wouldn’t sell me an encyclopedia because it was too precious. Today, I told someone that I was buying a birthday present, and now I’m looking at these exquisite books, and I’m in that moment of hesitation because I know I’m about to cut something up. Some books, like the ones I got today, I may never find anywhere else. There’s always this moment when I have to take a deep breath because I have so much respect for the printed word and illustration. And then, of course, seconds later, I’m having a great time cutting. I’m cutting all the best bits out of every book and every magazine.