Peeking From Between My Fingers: Some Disjointed Thoughts On Kanye's 'Famous' Video

text by Lena Dunham

Like many pop culture addicted Americans, I wait with bated breath for what Kanye West will do next. Aside from his Twitter mayhem, he has created some really "next level shit" as the kids would say. I could also happily watch Kim Kardashian West chip the paint off a window ledge for hours and be fascinated. I admire that whole family, love the way they depict women as better in numbers and masters of their own destiny. I'd spend all summer at Kamp Kardashian. But it's possible to hold two competing thoughts in your mind and the Famous video is one of the more disturbing "artistic" efforts in recent memory.

Let's break it down: at the same time Brock Turner is getting off with a light tap for raping an unconscious woman and photographing her breasts for a group chat... As assaults are Periscoped across the web and girls commit suicide after being exposed in ways they never imagined... While Bill Cosby's crimes are still being uncovered and understood as traumas for the women he assaulted but also massive bruises to our national consciousness... Now I have to see the prone, unconscious, waxy bodies of famous women, twisted like they've been drugged and chucked aside at a rager? It gives me such a sickening sense of dis-ease.

I was raised in the art world by a dad who painted aggro scenes of sexuality and war and a mom who, ironically enough, has photographed some butt naked life-sized dolls of her own. I live for the nude rabble rousing of Carolee Schneemann and Hannah Wilke, for Kathy Acker's arty porn, for Paul McCarthy's gnomes with butt plugs and Vito Acconci masturbating under the gallery floor and Carrie Mae Weems shedding a blinding light on the pleasures and terrors of black womanhood. If it's been banned, I'll probably love it. Because I know that art's job is to make us think in ways that aren't always tidy or comfortable. But this feels different.

I'm sure that Bill Cosby doll being in the bed alongside Donald Trump is some kind of statement, that I'm probably being trolled on a super high level. I know that there's a hipper or cooler reaction to have than the one I'm currently having. But guess what? I don't have a hip cool reaction, because seeing a woman I love like Taylor Swift (fuck that one hurt to look at, I couldn't look), a woman I admire like Rihanna or Anna, reduced to a pair of waxy breasts made by some special effects guy in the Valley, it makes me feel sad and unsafe and worried for the teenage girls who watch this and may not understand that grainy roving camera as the stuff of snuff films. I hesitated a lot about saying anything cuz I figured the thinkpieces would come pouring in. But I didn't see this angle being explored as much as I had hoped. It's weird to feel like you're watching alone. I bet I'm not.

Here's the thing, Kanye: you're cool. Make a statement on fame and privacy and the Illuminati or whatever is on your mind! But I can't watch it, don't want to watch it, if it feels informed and inspired by the aspects of our culture that make women feel unsafe even in their own beds, in their own bodies.

Y'all, I'm so sick of showing up to the party angry. But at least I brought cake.


Originally published as a public comment on Lena Dunham's Facebook page. Photograph by Terry Richardson. Follow Autre on Instagram: @AUTREMAGAZINE


The Best Feminist Memoirs of 2015

The political and social landscape of 2015 inspired need for both self-reflection and a call to action. This year, we saw the release of beautiful new memoirs by feminist icons of the past few decades—Patti Smith, Gloria Steinem, Janet Mock, and more—tackling issues of women’s rights, self-empowerment, and art itself. Here are some of my favorite feminist memoirs from the past year, along with some additional must-read memoirs:

1. M Train by Patti Smith

Everyone’s favorite punk poet laureate gives us a glimpse of her daily wanderings as an aging artist, confronting mortality, loss, and the ephemerality of experience with honesty and grace. Purchase here.

2. My Life on the Road by Gloria Steinem

The icon of second wave feminism reflects on her nomadic upbringing and how travel has continuously inspired her to keep asking questions, keep listening, and above all, keep moving. Find it here.

3. Girl in a Band by Kim Gordon

At once unpleasantly gritty and remarkably beautiful, Gordon’s memoir covers everything from growing up with a mentally ill older brother, to the making of those famous Sonic Youth albums, to her distaste for Lana Del Rey. Buy it here.

4. Not That Kind of Girl by Lena Dunham

Dunham has often been called the voice (or a voice) of the millennial generation, and her self-exposing memoir is of no exception. Not That Kind of Girl is full of confessions and self-reflections on topics such as ovarian cysts and a Puerto Rican boyfriend with a Comic Sans tattoo. Check it out.

5. How To Be a Woman by Caitlin Moran

Piecing together social observations and personal experiences, Moran sheds new light and humor on the fight for women’s empowerment and gender equality. Purchase here.

6. Bossypants by Tina Fey

Half-memoir and half-comedy sketch, Fey explores the humor of female vulnerability and the bittersweet power of being a woman in comedy at the top her game. Buy it here.

7. Yes Please by Amy Poehler

Poehler’s memoir-ish book is full of both self-empowerment revelations and crippling difficulty of writing the book itself, told in a scattered series of narratives that are at once funny and endearing. Read it here.

8. I Am Malala: The Girl Who Stood Up for Education and Was Shot by the Taliban by Malala Yousafzai

Malala Yousafzai is a force. Her memoir is powerful, not just for its vivid drama, but also for its exigent call for girls’ right to education worldwide. Check it out.

9. #Girlboss by Sofia Amoruso

The CEO of Nastygal takes us on her journey towards success and self-empowerment. Purchase here.

10. Redefining Realness by Janet Mock

In a world where very few memoirs by trans women of color exist, Janet Mock offers a beautiful and compelling glimpse into her intellectual journey to self-actualization, happiness, and success. Check it out here.


Text by Lucia Ribisi. Follow Autre on Instagram: @AUTREMAGAZINE